Sunday, April 19, 2009

Outs with the girlssss....

6pm exact i start to get myself ready to meet up the babes that i have not met for ages...hehehehe i am so excited (like a first date kind of feeling)... Took a straight bus to town from office, take a short nap (as always..i am always sleepy) and alight at Lucky Plaza. We gonna have dinner at Ayam penyet Ria...OMG the que is horrendous. We took lots of pics while waiting for a turn to get a place. Girls will always be girls..they just wanna have fun!!!!
After dinner, we meet Ellie aka Miss Pret-Zel. Though she don pretzz but she is still late by an hour...Anyway we proceed to cash box studio, after a donkey years...The session start at 10pm till 1am...
Though its a long day for all of us...but we are happy though!!!!! Cos we have spend time together...**winks**

P/S: We have plans lots of holidays ahead!!! May (my bday chalet), Aug ( Bali to celebrate Ellie's bday), Oct (KL to celebrate Watee's bday) Nov (Batam to celebrate Cuzin n Chicha's bday double celebration) My galfrens all like celebrity sia bday celebrations out of S'pore.....Love u all babes!!!!!

Monday, March 30, 2009

Hmmm.....

Its a bad weather....best to have an indoor activities. But me aint gonna coop up in the house again...So I've decided to catch a movie again or run errands. So while i was getting myself ready, I replied to Elly's sms...highlighting to her of my plans today. And our conversations continues with updates of our lives. Well it has been awhile since the last we met, it was the Batam trip (donkey years...hehehehe)
Well one of the topics was clubbing, i asked her how often does she clubbed nowadays especially its recession period. She claimed that she cut down alot on parties in the clubs, its a waste of money and she complained on how financially tight she get herself into..and the next pay day due in another 3 weeks time....Lets think bout the possibilities of how clubbing could lead you to "bankruptcy" but its not as terrible as what credit card can do to you though.
For ladies, there is no charge of entrance fee on certain nights. But all our money gone on drinks and cab fares (are really killing us). From my personal point of view, its just a short term of happiness. You didnt really got to see what you've spend at clubs cos its not a material to take notice of. The next moment you check your bank account balance you were shocked and hoping that a bunch of aliens invaded your bank account...each one of us is living in denial whenever we encounter such situations, and i have to admit that i am one of them. As i grew older, i channel my needs to other parts of my life...prolly shopping or holidays. Get a stable job, save money and spent it for holidays...explore the world.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

" Do i really have a fren? "

The past few weeks or months, i felt like a loner. Hanging out with friends has lessen. At one point, i am alone most of the times and ask this myself " Do i really have a fren?"

ChiCha (Fisa)
She's working retail so hanging out with her is quite difficult due to the working hours. And going out with her is like a promo kind of thing. "Buy 1 GET 1 for FREE", she always with her World Peace BF. Hangouts or holidays her bf will always stick to her like a UHU Glue. And its such a pain in the ass cos she is my close fren...~sigh~ so that explains why i seldom hanging out with her.

Elly (Miss Pret-zel)
She works in one of the foreign bank in Spore. We have the same working hours. She is SINGLE but NOT ALWAYS AVAILABLE. Always busy party at DBL O and Batam trips. Kindly take note if ever make plans with her pls, pls, pls prepare a back up plans. Cos she is known as "Miss Pret-zel" or "Miss Paitau"... ~sigh~ so that explains why we gave her that nick.

Dim
She currently work in a bar. She's like Oreo biscuits ( kejap ada, kejap tk de). Her sleeping hours is so very irregular. Working hours clash with mine. Cant even meet up on weekends.. Very rare to meet up wif her. The most recent meet up, is actually to make up for the loss we never meet for 2 mths. ~sigh~ and that explains too huh..

Coliqs
Initially yes we are close like hanging outs or chilling session after work. But lately not anymore. I missed lots of activities. The karaoke sessions, the dinners, the chilling session at ECP, the career fairs, the window shopping...hmmm and many more la. That includes smoking break... i am alone. To make matter worst, MSN display pictures of them, and the taglines, and the talkings bout how much fun they had (eg. karaoke). At times, yes i did screw up the karaoke sessions due to i am not feeling well and inform them. And i assume they will postpone it to another day when i am feeling better (well basic iniative requires here). But they did not. And currently they are excited bout the trip they are going next week (to Genting) So you can imagine now that the taglines at msn flooded wif things related to Genting..Hmm whats next ehk? ~sigh~ well i am cool bout it, cos now i am adapting to it already... As for now....... i want to go for a smoke break alone...

:: RANDOM ::

Out from work at bout 7.45pm. Sourcing for events company for MH Exhibition.. By the way, thanks Elaine for your help in giving me your friends details to regards of events company. I was totally down...so i text him to let him noe dat i am heading home or maybe doing some soul searching. On my way back home, Dim msg me and we decided to meet up. Finally after 2 mths, we meet up. At first i could sense the awkwardness between us.. Not sure what to start with. But anyway we did talk over dinner, she was very hungry (as always). I did share to her what i really when thru during the months she went missing from my life.. and brief to her on what happen between me and Ren.

As we were busy doing all the catching up and stuff, my hp vibrates...its Ren's sms. He was so mad for not letting him know that i am going out with a fren - i apologise and admit my mistake. In between my conversation with Dim, there is alot of exchanging sms-es, return calls, argue with Ren. There is at one point i just couldnt control my tears and let it out....this time i felt he has gone too far. Dim actually type a very long msg for him and want me to send it to him the moment i arrived home. And i send the msg... and cried. Cos the contents in the msg is too harsh but at the same time i need him to respect me. I browse back all the pics i have with him..since day 1. I really missed those days....everything was so sweet and perfect.

He starts to be nice wif me when he realise i was crying terribly and at a difficult situation to breathe and coughing. That's when he realise that he was too much.. We talk and explain things for a better understanding. And i told him, " Dear you are not only a bf but a bestfren, shopping buddy, a listener to me. If i lose you.. i will lose all of them."

I will always remember the first day..was yesterday the last day??

Last night after work, Kak Sha dropped me at his place..and she actually waited for quite awhile fear that something bad will happened ( thanks kak Sha...). And we talk things out, i apologised for the mistakes that i have done.
And after all the ugly incident between us.. We've decided to make plans for another getaway. There is a few locacations on our mind like KL, Bangkok etc. Well i was pretty excited bout the whole getaway thingy. Thru out the nite, we are discussing bout the possible dates for the getaway and stuff. He send me back and i fell into a deep sleep.....

This morning, everything was perfectly fine. I felt that i am the happiest person in the world, i felt so much love. Upon my arrival at the office, we will call or text each other (its the normal routine). But after lunch, he start to text me -" I think i need some space at the moment, dont disturb me for this few day." After i read the msg, i was speechless for a few minutes. I start to questions myself, " What happen last night was a dream?", " Why are we back? When you need the space to be alone?", "What was he thinking?" and lots of other stuff.. ~deep breathe~
Is this what i get for all the sacrifices i make?

I abide to all the rules you set for me. I listen to you more than myself, I prioritise your needs more than mine. One after another you gave me ~sigh~

Remember the first day, the first day we kissed
Remember the first day we had an argumentwe apologized and then we compromised
and we've haven't argued since
Remember the first day we stopped playing games
Remember the first day you fell in love with me
it felt so good for you to say those words
cause I felt the same way too

Monday, March 23, 2009

All i want is to be appreciated...

On our 1st mth - i send email to him to wish him...and how Happy i was to be wif him. I thanked him for making me believe in love again.

On our 2nd mth - i Waited patiently for the clock to strike 12midnite just to sms him even so i noe he is asleep. The idea so that the message will a put a smile on his face first thing in the morning.

On our 3rd mth - i bought a chocolate wif his name engraved.. Knowing dat he is a chocolate Lover..

I will always remind YOU to clip ur nails, and I will trim ur eyebrows so that it will look neat.

I will always put YOU on my top priority. The moment i heard YOU are short of cash, i will get sufficient amount transfered to your account. With no questions ask or even ask you to pay it back- it never came across my mind.

When i am on a shopping spree, ur needs will always on my shopping list. It dont have to be a big thing, its the thought that matters.

I will always do anything... for you. ~ Tears welling up~ Just want you to know that flaws make each of us human. Hope you can find someone that will always make you happy in many many ways...

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Happy Monthsary to YOU....

We meet up at bout 7pm... and head to Vivo. We bought a pair of movie tickets for Hotel for The Dogs...hmm the show starts at 9.30pm. And so we have decided to go for activity "sakit kan mata and hati" hehehe in short its window shoppping. We went in to the common shops like Zara, Esprit, Forever 21, River Island, Pull n Bear and Armani Exchange.. Actually we were just browsing. But he fall in love with a black jacket at Zara dat cost $299.... and i swear to god he look so cute when he put it on. And after all the activity "sakit kan mata and hati" we settle down for a dinner at Long John Silver. Then we smoke to pass the time..
Yeah its finally 9.30pm...the show starts. I love the show, the dogs are so cute and there is an emotional part that will always touch my heart. And after the show we still hang out n chat, that night i just felt that we have alot of talking to do, its like we have never met a donkey years...the fact is, we never met for only a day!!! And bout 12midnight, we headed for home by cab.

P/S: Dear thanks for everything. That's so sweet of u... i love u too much!!! **mmmuaacckkzz**