It has been 2 weeks since the last i heard from you...I really miss the times we always gossip and talk bout anything under sun...But well people change... You have change into someone i don seem to know...
You are gone in a blink of eyes. Wat went wrong? Love really make you go blind... that you've forgotten who are ur true frens, whom always there by your side when you need someone most, lend you a shoulder to cry on..But you still choose a jerk who dump you countless times. All that i could i say.... i really miss you babe!!!! Probably things are better this way..

i can only hope......

i can only hope that u will find someone who will change ur thoughts & change you to someone that i noe ur potentially capable of becoming. ive tried pushing th limits, trying to get you to become that someone, but maybe im not meant to be th one to lead you to that path. i'd rather see th person i LOVE more thn anthing in this world be happy with someone else thn be unhappy with me. i just have a wish. that in th years ahead, when anyone asks you of ur first true love, u'd say my name. cos u're my first true love, th reason my heart beats faster & slower at th same time. & there will never be another first fer us as long as u & i live. marry a responsible woman who loves you more thn i do. make me proud.

Everyday is a Valentines Day

It has been ages since the last i blogged in here...Well as always there is too many things happen in our life. Hmmm what should i start with...

Valentine's Day - I was out with the usual peeps..hang out with Chicha, Lan, Zu and Bf and of cos my Valentine...Rendra. We chilled at Esplanade By The Bay and booze...that is how i celebrate my V Day..with the gorgeous peeps i adore in my life. We have lots of chocolates too!!! Its everyone favourite except for Naya aka Miss Super Blur...she claimed dat only Horny peeps eat chocolates. And so we booze all night....

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Hmm.... its more than a week since the last i heard from you.. I wont deny i miss you badly seh.
But well i need to put aside all this feelings cos i am getting sick and tired bout the whole procedure...all the best babe...

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I cant pretend these tears
Aren't over flowing steadily
I cant prevent this hurt from
Almost overtaking me
But I will stand and say goodbye
For you'll never be mine
Until you know the way it feels to fly

.: Relationships :.

Currently i have doing alot of thinking bout the relationships around me... Relationships between my mom and step dad, between sis emma and hubby, between my bestie and her ex... Its like a thousand pound of stress on my head.

My mom & step father:
From the outside, u guys look like you are still husband and wife... but actually you guys are not even in talking terms with each other. Both of you lead your life separately.. So why still together when you guys knew things are not right between the both of you.... Or is it for the sense of belonging??? Or is it bcos you guys have been together for almost 20yrs... But the love is no longer exists??? Step dad is forever wif all the scandals and stuff...

Sis Emma & Hubby:
I have been staying with you guys for nearly 3 years.. But lately, there is too many things happen in your lives. He make a big mistake this time, by having an affair... and sis, i can imagine what you went thru. Your frequent arguements make me uncomfortable... and i know the kids are suffering too..maybe elisha is still young to understand but the other two probably have an idea bout everything. I dont wish to meddle with your affairs.. If you guys knew that things are not the same anymore--- i suggest you get it settle and over with. Ask yourself bout wat you want in ur life? Do u really need an asshole like him? Even if you are not with him, i know you can still survive...cos you have been tolerating his nonsense for the past 13 years... What ever decisions you make... I will always be there for you...**hugs**

Bestie & ____( i just cant describe the status between you and him):
I know you guys have been together for 4 years..(so what??) Babe, its not bout how long you guys are together..its bout how much you love each other. On the day he dumped you, its actually the day you should realise that he no longer need or love you.. Its actually a new beginning for you... But you still choose to be wif him (sigh!!!) You know he slept around with countless of bitches. So why must you waste your time? For all i know, he is an asshole..jerk..gold digger.. any many many more. Pls accept the fact that you guys are not meant for each other...

My Point of View:
Are all guys the same?? They will only stick with you when they need you...when they have squeeze everything out of you and they will dump you... Hmm or should i say their love can only last a few years, after that they will get bored. Or should i say their love is all base on lust...Haizz guys will always be guys... and we women will always at the losing end...And if you know its all ending, pls stop pretending..

Her last day....

Wat a day to start with... i was dragging myself to work...AGAIN!!!! haizzz...Rasa mcm da malas giler la nak gi keje but no choice i am not born in a rich family(how i wish seh) Well i start my day as normal la... On the comp and start to check my daily horoscope (its a habit now) Today is Dhiana's last day at work, she gave me a body spray and a little note.. (Thanks babe!!!) When i read her note, i cried...(flash back on how we first met at work) the bond that we have built during her past one year with the company. Initially, i dont really quite like her because of the way she talk very loud and straight forward. As days passed, we hang out and chat with her and confide with her whenever i have problems and stuff like that then i realised that she is just being herself. I still remember those days when she actually brought for us breakfast like roti john (her mom is a good cook-her sambal is superb) curry puff, tuna sandwich and chicken pie... and our place is always full of tidbits (that's why everyone love our department, cos they know where to get food from) Well babe you are always remembered in many many ways... Still remember we celebrated bday together (cos ur bday fall a day after mine) Hmmm shopping with her was madness..hahaha still remember bout the "bread" that cost her $95 (you know i know ok babe) and always remember her as someone who loves to shop..

P/S: Gonna miss you la babe ** Hugs **

The past few days we have lots of miscommunication and lots of misunderstandings... Its all thanks to my super farking ego attitude.. Hmmm i guess due to my period i was cranky the whole of yesterday... I wont deny i miss him badly la seh....Later part of the day (when i put aside all my ego) i called him and confess to him how much i love and miss him...hehehehehehe (malu nye aku).
And today we meet up... i was so eager to meet up with him..He fetch me from work (sweeeet kan) and we went for dinner, and we chat over dinner and it was a good one... Then we lepak-ing as always.. I just felt tonight he was extremely cute!!!!! I love everything bout him...especially his lips (I LOIKE!!!) hahahahahahahaha

P/S: Darling i am very sorry if the past few days i make your life miserable. I really love you tooo much **MUACKZ**

REN..... YOU are the reason i believe in love again!!! I wont deny he is the sweetest thing in my life. But our love life is very weird...hahaha... Hmm we dont have the so-called "Honeymoon" period like wat other couples claimed. Or should i say... we are the weirdest couple on earth??? He is not the romantic kind of guy. And probably i fell in love of his irritating-ness (he can be a pain in my ass)